In 2015, I received a grant from the Somerville Arts Council. This was not the first time I’d received funding from the city. But the circumstances were much different. Back in 2008, my grant was the result of a slender satirical novel I self-published. When I applied for the money in 2015, I wasn’t sure whether my blog would even qualify as an “arts” entry. But it did. And Jane Callachan, then living in Somerville, reached out to me to ask if she could be on my panel. I agreed, and I wasn’t disappointed.
The library where the forum took place was packed—a clear demonstration that people with dementia can be productive. And the forum sent a clear message: people with dementia are not just capable speaking publicly; they can organize such events. And by the time of the forum, Jane had a new diagnosis: posterior cortical atrophy, a variant of dementia that affects vision. Even back then, I was not comfortable speaking unless I had a text to read from. But Jane required no such help. She spoke fluidly and compellingly, without the help of notes.
Jane and I were each diagnosed at age 53, but our journeys, of course, were different. For more than 2o years, Jane worked in the hospitality industry, in Harvard Square. She loved helping her clients and she loved the milieu. Describing herself as a “social creature,” she enjoyed hearing snatches of other languages filtering through the polyglot city of Cambridge. Her job brought her significant satisfaction. “They were interesting people,” Jane noted. “It just made me feel that I was part of this big world.”
Her problems, when they came, were difficult to pinpoint. About a year earlier, she started making mistakes in her work. At that early stage, Jane had no trouble catching the miscues. But then it became difficult to do her job. Confiding to her sister, Annie, proffered advice: “Just calm down.” But Jane could sense that something was wrong. “I kept on saying, ‘there’s something wrong with me. I think I have early-onset Alzheimer’s.’” According to Jane, Annie still has a residue of guilt for not taking more seriously Jane’s concerns about having Alzheimer’s or some other form of dementia.
Early on, Jane was terrified by the notion that she might be going blind. Another factor in her life was depression, which she had lived with since her teenage years, although she didn’t take drugs for the condition. A new concern for Jane, after her original diagnosis, was anxiety. “When you have to make a phone call, and when you can’t read the numbers on your phone, it is stressful. And when you start thinking you can’t do those things, you start thinking that you are losing your mind. I was terrified. It made me feel small, weak, afraid, terrified.” Jane slowly enunciated each word.
At this point, Jane and Annie made a second trip to LensCrafters. But nothing changed for Jane. The next step—the crucial one—was to meet with a neurologist. Jane’s therapist provided common sense: “If you think you’re going blind or going crazy or have Alzheimer’s, see a neurologist.” And because the situation was deemed urgent, a PET scan was scheduled promptly, at Beth Israel Hospital in Boston.
The initial diagnosis was early-onset Alzheimer’s. But within a matter of months, the diagnosis was changed to the more precise diagnosis of posterior cortical atrophy, a form of dementia that affects vision. Recalling her emotions at the time of her diagnosis, “I was so angry. I just wanted to throw something. And I would take these wicker baskets. I had never wanted to break something. But I went into the kitchen, and I slammed the wicker baskets around the room.”
In the two-plus years since Jane and I received our initial diagnoses, we’ve both been active in advocating for the Alzheimer’s Association agenda—taking part in lobbying the Massachusetts State House as well in the nation’s capitol, and taking part in forums in cities like Brockton and Marlborough. Currently, Jane is volunteering at a Salem elementary school, where she and her husband now live. But she wants to increase her portfolio as an activist on behalf of dementia. Recently, Jane visited a Salem “Memory café”—a venue in which a range of people with cognitive problems can congregate comfortably, despite their limitations.
Jane’s main objective is to lessen the stigma of dementia. “I can’t say I am grateful for Alzheimer’s,” Jane stated, “but I have to find other pursuits to give my life meaning. But I think it’s only natural to be upset,” she continued, referring to the stigma of dementia. “It’s a terrible disease. But there are ways to make it better,” she said, citing art and music in particular. “It’s not like you sit around and talk to people and say, ‘What kind of dementia do you have?”
These days, Jane is living in a townhouse in Salem, Massachusetts, with her husband, not far from her sister’s unit in the same development. She misses Somerville, but the two sisters just are perhaps closer—both literally and figuratively—than they have been since they were growing up. Jane and her husband are residing in the same townhouse development where Annie has been living for some time.And it’s not just services such as helping Jane for filing her income taxes, which can be challenging for anyone with cognitive decline. The most important thing, according to Jane, is Annie’s “kindness and wisdom,” intangibles to make this unconventional pairs of households work
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